A Promise To Myself

You just cant turn the charm on

            Or find any of the right words

I know the drinks from your breath

If I don’t wanna do it

You’re probably just gonna make me

I can never tell when you’re fucking around

Everything im feeling is constant

And I’ve never felt so alone

But I made a promise to myself in the mirror

After the first purple flower you left on my skin

“Promise not to break, no matter how far you are bent.”